Updated: Feb 18, 2021
"Out of all the things I am, everything I hope to be, when you look into my heart, there's a worshipper in me." -Marvin Sapp
It's been nearly two months since I joined the worship team at church. If you know me, you know that I love music and I love to sing. However, I am not the most talented singer. So when God gave me the word to join, I was nervous. It's one thing to sing amongst the congregation, but its another to stand on the stage.
There is added pressure in the fact that our church is bilingual and we sing in English and Korean. I am familiar with some of the songs, but most of them are new to me. So I am tasked to learn each song in both languages. JESUS take the wheel!
When I stood in front of the church for the first time, my confidence was at the lowest level. One, I was dwelling on my mediocre voice; Two, my Korean reading ability. As I stood on the stage. I was anxious about being the only foreinger on the stage. As a result, I wanted to live up to the expectations I thought that others had of me.
She's Black! She should be able to sing! She's not Korean! Can she read Korean?
I struggled with this for a few weeks. And I couldn't enter God's presence.
Until one friday night, during chapel. As we worshipped and prayed I heard the Lord's gentle reminder, "Whom the Son sets free, is free indeed." (John 8:36) I pushed past any anxiety or reservations I held and lifted my hands to the Lord. God was pleased with my praise.
Even still, I continue to ask God to help me praise him freely, without any concerns. While praying this prayer one Sunday, God remined me of Peter when Jesus walked on water. I was only to only to keep my eyes on Jesus, not on the wind and waves around me.
Today was the first time I tuly let go of my worries and found myself wrapped in the presence of God while on that stage. Maybe I don't hit every not prefectly or sing every word correctly, but my praise is not a performance. My only desire is to worship in spirit and in truth. (John 4:24)
Praise and worship is pleasing to God; It is a time of intimacy and refreshing for us. I will continue to practice and increase my worship. I pray you do the same.
Below are some of my favorite worship songs! Enjoy His presence.